South Carolina, Wedding and bad decisions

Samma and Curtis

 I apologize in advanced for how long and weird this blog is going to be. It's a culmination of what's all been going on in my crazy life within the past week and a half. 


We (Curtis, Christina, and Sam and I) left after work on Friday March 16 to drive to Myrtle Beach. I for some reason drove 12a-7a which enabled me to be an absolute bitch for the following day. If I'm too excited about something I will not sleep, I've tried to chill out, yoga, meditation. Shit's hard for me. But anyway a few personality drinks remedied that situation. Finally when we were able to check into our resort. I have never seen soooooooo much on a bell cart before. Having worked in the hospitality industry, this photo on the right is very impressive! Great job Curtis.  Fortuately he loves packing so much. Well I don't know if he loves it, but he is better than I. I just do not have the patience to pack things and fold them and make sure things fit in a certain way. It doesn't appeal to me in the slightest and frustrates me to no end. 

Curtis and I at the Atlantic right behind our resort

Curtis, me, Christina, Samantha

Me Christina and Samma on St Pats day- before my no sleep tantrum :(

Curtis and I feet in sand

Curtis and I feet in Atlantic

Tuesday I endured the mother of all sunburns, which was less than fun. I couldn't even shave my legs until Friday (lol, sorry Curtis). I tried getting into the hot tub and it wasn't happening for me. I felt as if I were being dipped in acid - it was so painful. My cohorts on the vacation tolerated my incessant whining and diva like attitude all week (thanks guys).

On Wednesday we went out to the outlet mall that was right next to our resort.  And am proud to say with much accomplishment that I walked out of BCBGmaxaria and only spent a little over 100 dollars!!! I also found 2 dresses that I loved and I am NOT sorry for buying both of them :D

My sunburn was awful! just this limited amount of time in the water was agonizing.

 Christina and I had everything set up waiting for the Bridal Party to come and get pretty before the wedding. This venue was gorgeous! Jess looked awesome. I did in fact complete my mission of getting absolutely wedding drunk. I didn't sit in the hot tub like I wanted because it was closed by then. But I did manage to find a steak n shake where in the drive through Curtis put my bra on and posed for several photos.  

 I love this TREE!!!!!!!! It is a month ahead of schedule for blooming. And I missed it!! I watch this tree bloom every year, but this year I was unable to. When we move in a couple of years this will be the only this I will truly miss about this house. 

Now that I've been on vacation I've had such a sense of guilt for the TERRIBLE eating choices I have made all week (most of which happened after I took an ambien and engaged in various other sorts of terrible decision making :(..) I weighed myself when I came home and I have gained a total of 9 lbs!!! Who is talented enough in this world to gain 9lbs in just a week?!?!?! I knew I was going to gain something, maybe like 4 or 5 at the most. But 9?!?! Seriously!? I stayed active, I monitored my alcohol to just liquor basically. The wedding day I knew I was going to blow it. They had pasta, which was amazing! I know this because I tried everything. And also I had like 3 bottles of red wine during the reception. I justified it as me working my ass off to get the bridal party ready before the wedding. And I was dead set on getting so completely shit faced during this reception. MISSION accomplished!! My earlier behavior led me to a Steak and Shake Drive thru at the end of the night, and taking that back to the resort and totally David Hasselholf-ing it, don't get me wrong... I'm not an animal, there were plates and napkins involved.  But that was just on Friday, that didn't count the 4 brownies, and 60 double triple oreos I consumed late night tuesday and wednesday. SMH!! So now I'm terrified to weigh in, because I feel like I've let my team down. All of my plans to stay clean-ish during this whole vacation - I basically just shit on. GAHHHHHHHH!!!! So now, I'm in the process of losing the water weight and other weight I've gained and it SUCKS. No leniency what so ever, clean low carb eating for me. Curtis said that he can't tell that I've gained but, he also knows how to lie to my face when it comes to me being neurotic about my body and eating. I didn't even have to ask him, because I don't need for him to reassure what I already know. This girl needs to put in some SERIOUS work this week.

Gorgeous Day!

I will say this because I've lived in more than one place my entire life. There is NOTHING like a Michigan summer or spring. Everything is so green up here, the air is amazing, the smell of spring is phenomenal. And what sucks is that the weather is supposed to be nicer here than it is in Myrtle Beach which SUCKS!!!!!! I think the universe is working against me :( The weather should be rainy which means my hair will be really pretty. And there is also a pollen warning which means with my running nose and itchy eyes I'll be super pretty. I just wanted sun and sand and warm!!!!! :(

I am soo proud of my weight loss team at work. Everyone was down this week. They will publicly post how everyone is doing tomorrow. So I can't wait to continue my trash talking to HR. I was down 6, Jill was down 5, and everyone else was down a pound. Which is amazing!! I've been really cracking down on their snacks because I know one of them is sneaking chocolate! But they deserve it, they've been working hard.

The photo to the left is my husband and "kids". They are my world!!

A gift I received from a coworker. Irish growing moss and Prep H. How funny! The back story on this is that, I helped out a new provider so she can continue with her CME (Continued Medical Education) course. The subject matter was extremely disgusting. Hemroids, polyps, and   other super gross things. This project happened over the course of months!! But I couldn't say no to scanning in the positives of some film of gross pictures!! I love getting gifts at work!   

Teachable

Yesterday morning kicked off the wedding season activities for Curtis and I. I went to a very nice shower. The location, overall feel, and love for this bride is unreal. She has such an amazing support system between her friends and her fiance's friends as well as her family. I think this is just awesome that she is so happy. I knew her before when she wasn't with this guy and now since she's known him for a year she's is now overall a more.... relaxed person.

Shortly after I arrived (late) the matron of honor had everyone go around the room and tell the bride why they thought she would make a great wife. Everyone had really nice things to say to this girl. Most of it was about how she would be a very godly wife and such. I almost felt like I needed to drink the cool-aid, put on a track suit and wait for the space ship. Mind you this is a lingerie party, and for her to get bedroom things after they are married. Don't get me wrong, I do very much believe that there is a higher power, but I honestly feel like Christians are the worst - especially born again ones. And I'm also not overly opinionated with my beliefs but the whole relationship with Christ I was witnessing was pretty obsessive and unhealthy and to sum it all up, weird.  And the thought of having Christ in the bedroom was beyond weird, lol what's he supposed to do? Give you a high five for giving your husband a top notch bj? But for the sake of the party I just swallowed uncomfort and had the best time that I could. Which it was fun! I was really impressed by what her Matron of honor said about her. She told the bride she would be a great wife because she is teachable. POWERFUL! Of all the things I completely disagreed with at this shower with all of these type A women. I completely agreed with that statement. And I didn't expect that statement to move me so much. But applying that to my own life, I want to become better for my husband. Marriage is so give and take, so much compromising. It does not work if neither party is wanting to be "teachable". So after I heard that I was refreshed. I was just overall happy with the experience no matter how bazaar I thought it was. I came across this pin on pinterest Inspire your husband, I want to always keep him surprised and never take him for granted. Curtis and I have been together for a little while, sometimes I want to strangle him, others I just want to let down my guard, release my fists, exhale all of my worries, frustrations away and fall into his arms. He is home for me. It just makes me think of this song Beyonce 1+1.

Cheese grater delight

SSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooo PUMPED for next Friday!!!!!!! I'm going to South Carolina with Curtis, Samma, and Christina.  OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!! I can't wait to just get into the car and gooooooooooooooooo. I need to have my feet in warm sand and sun on my skin!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm on a mission to get a new dress when we are there. An awesome fitted hot ass dress! But I am very particular when it comes to my clothes and I do not like to be disappointed with what I'm wearing. So this needs to impress! After I will be working my ass off getting these ladies ready for the wedding - My overall mission is to get super pretty and have enough fun for everyone at the reception without getting weird drunk. Then I want to sit in the hot tub for a while and just relax!! But this is 2 weeks from now - it's soooooooooooooooooo close but sooooooooo far still.

Today went well, this whole week went well actually. My cheese grater I take into work broke about 4 months ago and I never replaced it. I suppose I could have but it hasn't been a priority of mine. But nothing is better than freshly grated parm on anything! If someone told me I had to use Kraft shaky cheese, I'd laugh in their face and then follow it up with a snarky "i don't think so". But point of this paragraph - My boss brought me her cheese grater (a pampered chef one) to keep because she said she never used it. WTF, how do you not use an awesome cheese grater like that?!?! Then to add on to her awesomeness she told me to leave early! So I did! I'm sooooooooooooooooooo satisfied with the events of this week, but I'm also feeling really restless. Curtis came home last night, I was out but we hung out before bed. So that was nice. He does this weird thing when he sleeps. He'll smack his lips together like he's eating something, and without fail, I wake up and can't go back to sleep.

Last Sunday we had dinner at Brad and Chels' and I had such a good time!! It was honestly some of the best fun I've had in a long time.

Our team for the challenge has been doing really well!! I've been doing pretty ok but I have drank way more this week than I should have. It's amazing the effects alcohol have on you when you're starving!

Biscoff Cookie Temptation

I love when people bring me gifts at work!!!! I mentioned once in passing that I LOVE the cookies that Delta gives to people on their flights!! They are awesome!! They are sooooo light and buttery and cinnamon like! MMMm!! But they are still on my desk because I will not enjoy them until after May 1 when the competition is over. The ladies have been doing awesome! I haven't had to threaten anyone with violence. So hopefully I'll be getting some extra funny money in May which would be sweet!! 

A license plate I saw tonight that says 4snooks. ha! I love just driving around listening to music to clear my mind. Who would do that? Just one of the several things I do not understand. 

I can't wait for Curtis to get home!!!!! 

Colorectal Screening Kit

Such a busy week!

I did have an amazing experience today at the Health Fair. LOL, Yes..... Free colorectal screening kits! I have never realized how much preparation goes into these events. This was super interesting, the fair was completely free to the community and you could get some pretty normal things (pens, key chains, etc) but I am very proud to announce that we are the ONLY booth to be giving out colorectal screening kits! For a Saturday gig it wasn't terrible, Karin is by far one of my favorite people to work with. For a couple of non clinical people we certainly did get this information out to the masses! There was a ton of other interesting things going on like a live colonoscopy and a woman dressed as a polyp (google it if you don't know).  Oh, the things I do for PTO time.... This photo also makes me crazy because I am not tall to begin with 5'5'' when I'm with Karin or other ladies shorter than I am it makes me look behemoth.

I love winter, do not get me wrong. I would not live in Michigan if I didn't seriously love my seasons. Around March I am over it, but I know that there are going to be snow storms until late April. So now is my transition period in between "spring renewal" and cabin fever. I have such inner turmoil!!!!!!!

I am in lusty crazy passionate love with The Fray's new album and a trip to Chicago may be in order for a concert.

My department weights in on Monday. I've endured a ton of smack talking from HR. So hopefully they put their money where their mouth is!!! But I'm overall optimistic about this challenge.