I am me

This is a phrase I'm seeing all too often. I find it pretty annoying that it seems to be a white flag of maintaining manners and common decency. Not to mention absolutely cliche.

From my experiences there have been times where I KNOW I've stepped out of line. I may have hurt someone close to me or made an awful perception of myself. So when I see the one who I view as completely irrational and looking for a fight say "I'm me, there'll be no apologies", I become so perturbed. I think I do pretty well on personal boundaries, I can read others body language to make sure that I'm not being an asshole to whomever.

To sum this blog up everyone should be kind to one another. Being yourself is awesome, however if you're an asshole and not recognizing your behaviors to deter people away.

Festive Train. Choo Choo!!!!

Although it's not yet winter, I'm feeling the winter blahs already. I don't want to do anything, the days are so short. Which makes going to the gym near impossible. I'm becoming frustrated with myself. We're going to start on the house renovation soon (this week). When I get anxious or nervous I tend to be an eater to cope with stressors. But with no kitchen I probably won't have that issue!!! With the downstairs torn out we won't have a place for a christmas tree or put up any kind of decorations. I never knew how much I would miss having a tree until we logically can't put one up and decorate this year. Having so many projects going on makes it difficult to maintain focus and clarity. I don't think that men know the importance of a home vs a house. They are totally different. But now we have a goal in mind to complete the project by May because we're having house guests!!! Which I'm so excited about!!!!!! I feel like Curtis and I have done so well for ourselves, but we both know we will never be successful enough for us. Which means that we have so many more goals as a couple and individually to achieve.

Speaking of achievements now since friends are coming I need to train for the half, next year goal is 2:30 because I don't want to be running all day. So I'm going to need to do things way differently this winter. I'm wanting to join run camp, so hopefully this year, I'll form a life long connection with someone who has common goals and interests. This year I'm optimistic.

I'm still recovering from that nasty sinus infection I had a couple of weeks ago. Even with antibiotics being completed a week ago I still think my respiratory system has recovered yet.