Sunday Funday!!!

Today was mostly relaxing. I made pulled chicken and the trick for shredding your chicken/pork/whatever meat you want to shred is to use a hand/stand mixer. BRILLIANT! Something that used to take me 15-20 minutes to do using 2 forks now takes a matter of seconds with a hand mixer!!! I love when I can make women's work easier. Our plan to move the furniture into the dining room was not accomplished. My husband played RIFT most of the day.. One day just to entertain myself I might log on to his account and sell his gear. LOL I probably won't, but it cracks me up to even think that I would do that.

2 weeks until the cruise!!!!! I'm so pumped up!!!!!! Of all the things I could even fathom doing in Mexico, buying one of those Mexican looking jackets, and buying a TON of pure Mexican vanilla is on my list!! Sometimes, I am super easy to please. Just thinking of getting to know new friends and spending time with old friends makes me so excited. I am mentally packed. I know what I'm wearing most days, how my hair is, what most of my activities will be. Most people have put my mind at ease, because I was very fearful about waiting in a ton of lines and having crazy kids running around everywhere.

I really need to start yoga and other forms of mediation, I honestly think if I were more centered with 2 situations in my life I would be much better off. Thanksgiving is coming faster than I can even think! Which makes me think Christmas isn't much further behind (but I've already been prepping for that). Thanksgiving and Christmas are two of my least favorite holidays. Because I have to be with my family.

Happy Hot Mess Week

Golly! I really think that blogging is beneficial for me to track my growth. This year has been such a year of growth. We're in October now, and I'm so excited to see what's in store for me throughout the rest of the year. I've grown so much personally and professionally this year. I've squashed some grudges and really started to focus on the most important things in life.

A new development that Curtis and I have been talking about so much and exhausting the topic. We are super close to redoing the layout of our downstairs. Moving the kitchen into the current "living room" and turning the old kitchen into a half bath and storage closet. When this is done we will hopefully sell this house within the next year and pursue a larger home. I really want to stay in Kalamazoo because of the promise. I would hate for our future/not even planned children to be stuck with education debt. Plus there are a lot of things that I want in the next house, like storage space. I've realized we have so much stuff and not enough places to put things. And I'm crazy excited for a floor plan that makes sense, not odd shaped, etc.

I'm super pumped up about the cruise, and Leslie and Greg's wedding. Also we're going to visit a friend of mine in November for her birthday!! I'm excited to kick off the holidays this year. My birthday kicks off the week of Thanksgiving this year.

I checked the moon cycle this week because I don't know what is going on people, I've been working with a bunch of cray crays. I know people who work in certain industries swear that a full moon is when the crazys come out. Maybe this week is an exception.

First day of fall

This summer has gone by so fast!! I took a little break from blogging and realized I need to continue to holding myself accountable. So I'm back!!!! Today is the first day of fall and it absolutely feels like it. Tonight Curtis and I are going to meet up with some friends from Indiana and some work friends. Which I'm super pumped up about. But first is Halloween decorating!!!! I love Halloween Decor.. I have such a sense of renewal with seasons I really like. I had a huge burst of energy on Wednesday. Also, I've been going on my afternoon sanity mile at work and that really seems to relax and calm me down. I almost passed out at the gym 2 weeks ago, by doing bicep curls... ????? I don't even understand why that happened but I just fell back into my old routine and corrected the situation. I need to reach my goal before the cruise, so I'm working hard.

I went through a series of interviews for a position that I didn't end up getting but that's ok. It was a great experience and I'm excited for my future. I've really made a name for myself professionally this year.

I'm excited for the holidays this year. It's bittersweet because of my family.

Adult life!

I just finished baking homemade cupcakes and chocolate frosting for our lake michigan picnic tomorrow.. This is to celebrate a friend's birthday who didn't receive a cake this year (that's sad! Everyone deserves cake). Yes I baked on friday night, I know this boosts my street cred immensely.  I love South Haven, it's so close and just a cute little lake town. I would very much like to live on a lake one day. But the cookie doesn't always crumble the way I think it's going to. But I need to continue to radiate positiveness, onward and upward I always say. 

My trainer is really working me. I've never considered myself much of a sweater, but after my sessions I am soaked. I don't know if anyone else is like me in the respect of needing to be comfortable at all times. Meaning that if I'm too sweaty I start to distract myself and really loose focus on my overall goal. 

I see the leaves changing on the trees already. I think its too soon!!! I love fall. I mean LOVE it! The smells are amazing, I love the smells of fall. Everything about fall I love. Pumpkins, apples, corn, corn mazes, cider, camp fires, hoodies, the colors of the leaves. I could continue on forever. 

Happy 4th

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!! I chose to make a lot of awesome choices today, I'm very grateful and thankful that I have the right to choose. Nothing super exciting has been going on recently. I've been really bogged down with a large project I'm working on at work. I really hope to pull it off. It's just going to take a ton of education for individuals in the organization. Fortunately I have a little bit of patience and energy for this task and I am up for the challenge. Onward and upward.

The 4th of July is always special to me because 4 years ago on this very day Curtis proposed at Rothbury so I hold it very near and dear to my heart. I thought that the year we were engaged it was the hottest day of all time (I was sorely mistaken). Today the heat index in Kalamazoo was 108.... WTF?!? This isn't death valley!! But I am happy to have water about very 10 minutes from us. We kayaked at a park where Curtis goes disc golfing a lot. The wind was almost too much. It felt really awesome because it was so hot, but when you paddle and get blisters the more you have to use your hands gets to be really uncomfortable. As always I adjusted my grip and moved forward.

I've been working with a trainer a day or so a week. I haven't noticed a huge difference in my body yet but others have. I've noticed I'm a lot more sore after my workouts. But, I don't know if that is because I just have me to focus on so I try harder?  I work with him next on Friday so I'm excited to see what kind of fun he has in store for me. I didn't eat breakfast on Monday and had 2 cups of coffee. Then I just started slamming water for the rest of the day. I had a good lunch but not a lot of protein. I was shaking during some of my workout later that day.. Awesome choices.... I know.

Last night Curtis and I went to South Haven to watch the fireworks. They were AWESOME!! I felt like it was worth the 40 minute drive to the beach. But it took an hour to get home because of all the traffic. I love South Haven, but I'm afraid to go to any other shore line further away in fear I would like it more and never go back to South Haven.

Catching Up

Since the last time I blogged, my quarter life crisis has passed. I think everyone goes through these "spells" or  at least that is what I tell myself. I feel refocused and ready to crank out this summer. I still have my outbursts of inappropriateness, but I believe everyone has those also and that's totally normal. I have never seen someone have it together 100% of the time. Everyone has their perfected areas of hot mess.

Father's Day is always a touchy super sad subject and holiday. I love my husband's father (my father in law).  How can a man just abandon children. I know maternally men don't view children the way women do, but really?

Bonnaroo, was a great big hot mess. A fun, super, hot mess. I had a ton of fun. Camping for 6 nights is very taxing. It made me really appreciate Curtis' camping skills. I saw some awesome bands. We were camped next to some very cool people. I now realize I know absolutely nothing about all of the recreational drugs people do. I was surprised how people can function regularly having pumped their bodies full of crap. Also, Bonnaroo was like a tiny Amsterdam - anything you wanted to take in, you could! There were only a few people who "they searched like well known drug mules".

We spent the weekend in one of my favorite cities to visit. I was fortunate enough to spend time with a dear friend of mine. It's been a long time coming since I visited her. But as I get older I really don't want to let go of memories of being young with them. Going down to this particular city has such a different meaning to me now. It's just kind of fun to think about the old days, haha! I'm super happy my friend had us stay with her, and I hope everything that she's going through right now works out. I miss her dearly and wish I could be there for her more. Not that I would be able to help, but laughter is the best medicine for most things and I have a never ending supply of that. I know I worry about people to a fault, but I get very protective over my friends. If I could endure their pain, I would. It means so much to me to see the people I love happy. I met another friend's son, who was stupid cute! Fortunately I'll get to see him grow up through facebook.

I'm so blessed to have the life I live. My family isn't what I would have chose but has made me a stronger person. I am so fortunate to have a husband that treats me like gold, 2 crazy fur babies and great friends. I think this is what life is all about.

Never Never Land

I've been going through this completely restless phase for the last couple of months. It's good because I'm staying active, and I'm happy. But, I am starting to think that I'm leaving people with the wrong impression of me. I know I joke around about being a huge hot mess, and I've proven it on occasion. For the most part I am quite boring. When I'm at home I blog, clean, love on my fur babies or my man, a good portion of my at home time is dedicated to reality TV. I want to say I'm your typical 26 year old woman with no children and a huge desire to never want to grow up. I have "never never land syndrome" if you will. I feel like I've reached the peak of my immaturity lately. But some pranks and jokes are just too perfect to not take advantage of. I don't want to be a lame bitter person who is "grown up". I'm having an awesome time being an adult without major responsibility (without a child). Sunday (Mother's Day) I had at least 3 people tell me happy Mother's Day, I never had a child with me. I didn't mind, I just said thank you because telling every person that I'm not a mom would grown tiresome after a while. I know my bod isn't where I want it to be, but I think people just thought I had a very nurturing look about me, which I find super comical.

Speaking of Mother's Day, I didn't call my mother at all. We do not and have never had a great relationship. We barely call each other for birthdays and I'm ok with that.